Forgive my doubt
Forgive my doubt
If fruit I foresaw
by Joel Howard
I have, like Zacchaeus
stingy been
I have, like him
Made enemies of men
Squandering my joy
Loving my own life
Holding my doubt
Hating others inside
Can you forgive
God, how stingy I've been?
Hoping my own accumulation
Can give me
What I need for the journey ahead
I lay down now my life
Choose to give now instead
So forgive my doubt
My doubt, my doubt, my doubt
So forgive my doubt
If I have squandered
Held back
If I have owned my own gift
Said it is mine
And withheld it
If fruit I foresaw
Then prevented
and hid
So as to self preserve
I repent of it
If I have stayed home
When you called me out
God forgive my doubt
Please forgive my doubt
If I a child have stayed
When father I should have been
If could have giv'n
Yet held back instead
God forgive my sin
God forgive now it
Cover me with
The freedom you have
Giving not to get
Loving not to get
Forgive me Father when
I like devils have been
Cringing at the normal
Longing for the Big
Grant me grace where I
Could have properly died
Yet chose to sin survive
Grant me peace where
I grieved you once before
God forgive my doubt
Let me 'stead generous live now
Pay back 4 times
Where I had kept in prior life
Zacchaeus, here I am
Next to you, friend
Short in stature
But Jesus rushed in
Hurried me to
Join at my table
Broke my heart in two
Saved my whole family
Changed all the game
Gave generosity
As my new name
Where I once held back
Jesus, you did
What I always dreaded
Begged me to give
Exampled your love
Saw me, good Friend
So now I give back
Lord, all of it
Forgiven and now
Free of my sin!
